You know what's annoying? People who decide they'll try your hobbies every time you get a new one. I absolutly hate that! I want to have a hobby all to myself that no one cares to do, at least the people close to me, or sometimes, by blood, other people, who I might not know very well, are ok... sometimes. I'm sure that everyone feels that way, to be great at one thing, to know all about it and everyone be retarted about it (I don't mean anything bad with the word retarded; it's just something that people are when they are exposed to something new.). It brings a certain... pride I suppose. For me, my annoying brother does almost everything I do. I watched anime first, now he does. I tried DDR before him, now he loves it. I've always drawn, and started before him, obviously, and he loves it. I liked music before him, now he does (I mean like playing it or singing or whatever. Not necessarily listening to it. Everyone listens to music. However, I don't like that he listens to some of the same bands as I.). Now a little history lesson, I'm not a big fan of my brother. I'm the sister on the sitcoms that you watch who doesn't interact with her brother unless she feels like being nice or whatever. Like Lizzie McGuire if you will (except that I don't interact that much). So, I like him away from me with his own friends (that are not at the same house as myself) and own hobbies. Another history lesson, I like to be one step ahead (or simply put, better) than the people around me with what I do. Like schoolwork. I generally have one of the highest grades in the class (and in some classes, the highest) and I'm used to it. Likewise, when it comes to things that I enjoy immensely (I do enjoy school very much by the way), I like to be on the top. Now don't get me wrong, I know that there will also be someone better than me but I do like to be near the top. So, I'm always competing, if you will, with those around me. Now, back to the hobbies. Anime is ok. I don't mind my brother watching a lot of it or reading a lot of manga. However, DDR straight pisses me off. I started it first, back in 8th grade when I went to Boondocks, a fun place with an arcade, mini golf, go-carts, etc., when we went on a field trip. I wasn't horrible even though it was my first time playing. ^_^ I then didn't play until I went to Six Flags with my friend and played it there; however, it was on standard mode (or possibly light ._.'') so it was hard to me... (and Standard mode is the second hardest in DDR. I'm playing now and am fairly good... I still need some work but I'm not horrible! ^_^) THEN I didn't start playing again until my friend brought it over and let me borrow it. I'd say I've been playing about 2 months since he left it here. Ok, back to the point. Now that we bought it, he plays it constantly, and going back to the point of me competing with those around me and trying to be the best, is trying to play Heavy mode after just barely playing Standard mode. I can play Standard mode fairly good and not Heavy. (However, he's playing all the easy songs on Heavy mode). I guess the part that pisses me off is that I can't go into a compettion without him also in it. I don't want to face him nor do I want him in a compettion. I want that to me MY thing. MINE! I don't really like him drawing either. I'm the one who wants to be a animator and a manga drawer. That's suppose to be MY thing! But no, he comes along and tries to take that from me. I can draw much better than him, however, simply because I read the books and he does not. (And experience obviously) And finally, (There might be more actually, but I can't think of them... they must not make me as mad as these. o.o) the music. Wanna know how annoying it was when my mom asked me if I could burn MY cd's for him? Very annoying. Why would I want to burn my cd's that I love for him? Just so he can listen to them? No. These are the reasons why I will never teach him any of my skills (like web designing). They're my skills that I took time to learn and I treasure them.

So, forgive me for the long paragraph that probably could be split into more paragraphs... but it was a rant and I didn't really care. Also, if it sounds like I'm selfish, I don't mean to be. It's just kind of part of me and I'll definatly try to change that. But don't you like to have your own hobbies that you thrive in? Doesn't it make you mad when someone takes up your hobbies and favors them just because you do it? Maybe it doesn't... but it does to me... (I probably shouldn't feel this way... but I can't really help it.)

And now this post is over. ._.;

Look who hasn't posted on their xanga in a long while!!! *ducks when fingers are pointed at her* T^T Forgive me for not posting, signing on AIM, and whatnot... it's not because I'm being "anti-social", it's because of school. *sigh* The six letter word that many children and teenagers consider evil. I do like school, I just don't like the projects and the homework. This week I have a paper to write about an excerpt called "Chinamen's chance", a current event article about Wal-Mart (actually, Sam Walton but he created it), a brochure about depression, and I have to write 20 2-4 sentences about some pictures to do with industrialization, immigration, and urbanization. *sigh* The good thing is, my brochure is almost done (just have to find some contacts) and the sentences will be done in class. Which leaves, the current event article and the paper which I'm almost done with (I'll start the current even either after I finish my paper or during the weekend *shudder* and my paper is almost done). So... I really don't know why I feel so... frustrated? I guess part of the reason is that my drawings aren't turning out how I want (HARUKA-SAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^.^), I don't really want to do school work, I don't really want to go to school, and I'm not in the mood to write... which, by the way, I will tell you about. I don't know how many of you are fans of Sailor Moon (you probably all were at some time... or at least most of you) and even worse, fans of Haruka Tenou (Sailor Uranus) which is what I am writing a story about. I want to have this huge site with a story, images, guestbooks, and the works... the problem is, I don't have any motivation... ._. And also, I go in and out of my favorites really quickly. It only takes a few months before I go back to another anime. (For example, I just got out of Yu-Gi-Oh! which I was in love with for a few months there... I've always been in love with it... but I mean really it!) So, I really hope that I can get some motivation. What are your motivations? I had one earlier for my drivers ed thing (but since the computer wasn't on, I couldn't do it and now I'm un-motivated again)... but that was because I'm a very competitive person and I overheard that another person was going to get their permit that day (and I always want to be before others when it comes to these things... don't ask). There's not much to compete over though... ;_;

Let's see... what else has been going on...? Well, I just had my birthday about two weeks ago (it was the 3rd) and it was awesome! I got a total of $125 (which I only have like $20 of... ._.), a cell phone (you're all probably like "she just got one now? O_O"), and... that's all... I'm hoping that I'll still get my MP3 player since my parents said they would. We played Cranium, the Donkey Kong game with the bongos, and DDR (well, kinda...). Btw, does anyone have DDR? I'm still on the light mode... but I'm ready for Standard mode (if only I could get myself to go faster T^T)(Don't make fun of me Andrew... just because I'm so slow... .o.). DDR is so much fun! Too bad they don't have any Smile.dk on it though... but they still have Junior Senior!!! ^.^ Tsugaru is pretty fun also... at least the easy one... the remix... not so fun. I still can't beat it... there's too many 1/8 notes!!! *dies* Um...  ya... so I think that's all... ._.

PS: I was looking for some new AMV and found this:
XD I love the guy with this face: :D tee hee!

PPS: Help me get motivated... PLEASE!!!

(Thank goodness for the spellcheck... I spelled so many words wrong... ._.)

Guess who's back!!! ^-^ Ok so I wasn't really gone... just not updating... o_o;;; it's been a whole month since I last updated!!! *dies* Neways, I have A LOT to talk about since I haven't updated in a while.

First I shall talk about my wonderful experience at the anime con!!! It's actually almost been 2 weeks ago since it happened... I meant to update!!! I swear!!! I just couldn't find the camera software!!! (Fine, don't believe me!!! T-T) But anyways, it was GREAT!!!! I LOVED it!!! And I am sooooooooooooo going back next year!!! Hopefully next year I'll have a costume tho! n_n I meant to have one for this one... but we didn't finish it in time. x_x The kimono... is... well, I'm not sure. The bottom of the sleeves are painted red and the kimono is finished... but I don't know how good it looks. I guess I could put a picture of it on here and see what ya'll think... ^-^ The pants are finished, the bow needs some blue paint, the fluffy... needs to be fixed... ^^;;; and I need to figure out how to make the armour (we threw away the old one). I have the wig and the paints and the shoes! I also hope to go as Pharaoh Atemu next year! He should be fairly easy to make since it's mainly fabric. The hair will be hardest and the metal that he wears will be semi-hard and semi-easy. Then I have no clue what I should do about the... shoe things they wear... ^^;; Alright, back to the con. The first thing we did was on Friday and that was to drop off my artwork. I had two (which I will show later) and both of them were buyable. Then we went home and I chatted with my two friends who were going with me the next day. On Saturday, my friends registered and then we walked around for a moment (and went to see how my work was doing) and then stood in line for the dealer's room. We decided to stay there first as there is only so much in the dealer's room. They bring it from their stores and can't restock normally. I got to go in earlier than my friends because I was pre-registered. I must say there is TONS of stuff in the dealer's room!!! That was one of those times that I wished I had like $10,000 so I could buy all the cool anime stuff there! (Maybe I can make a website during the summer and get some money that way...) They had soo many mangas, shirts, wallscrolls, posters, pocky, figurines, CD's, and tons of other stuff!!! I had around $100 and I bought a Yu-Gi-Oh! CD, a Sesshoumaru wallscroll, a Sesshoumaru picture, a deck of Inuyasha cards, a Vash plushie (that I gave to my brother), and my mom bought me a Sesshoumaru shirt. ^-^ Then after that we went to drop off our stuff and get some lunch. When we came back, we checked on my artwork (again) and learned that it was time to get autographs!!! So we waited in line for 30-45 minutes and then got everyone's autograph! I got Paul Dobson's autograph!!!!! (The dude who plays Naraku) YAY!!! So anyways, we went back to my mom, chatted, and then left. Then on Sunday, we looked for one of my internet friends (who was suppose to be Seto Kaiba), got my work, and then went home. Maybe next year I will do more things... (they had AMV's, art tutorials, games, and lots more!) Here's some pictures:

The top picture has my autographs and my award!!! I got an honorable mention for my artwork!!! YAY!!!! It's not the greatest... but it's better than nothing! I got that certificate and a mini-dvd (pre-tear) and a manga (Naruto) as a prize! ^-^ Here's the picture that got the award:

It's a little big... I know.

So, now to my life (technically that was my life... but that was anime con). School has gotten much better!!! I have all A's (yay!) and I have a few friends. I'm not so intimated now that I can work in the library during lunch. I get a lot done during lunch! ^-^ I enjoy school... it's just all the kids there... @_@

Well, that's all for now!!! And here's some of my recent pictures:

Ten reasons why this day sucked (in no particular order):

1) Too many people (I have people phobia...)
2) The bus was 30 minutes late
3) I didn't know neone
4) We played stupid games
5) School started
6) I have to go again tomorrow
7) I missed the bus
8) No friends (yet)
9) EVERYONE will be at school tomorrow (that just adds to my phobia...)
10) I had to wake up early

And there's more... but I didn't list them all so that you wouldn't get bored. There were SOME good parts during the day... but they seemed less than the sucky parts... but tomorrow WILL be better... cuz I said it would... and if it doesn't, I'll beg to be taught with a private tutor or via the internet. ^_^